Last night was my first meditation with my "crystal being".  I am sorry to say that it was not a great success.  I did have some visions though.  I did my little rituals beborehand then started the breathing exercises and focused on the stone, trying not to have any preconceived notions of whether the "being" was male/female or whatever.  My mind chatter was easier to quiet than usual.  I felt strength and energy in my left hand and began to deepen my breathing and closed my eyes.  Colors swirled behind my eyes and a shape began to emerge.............a being with long dark hair, their back to me washing their face in a stream........just as the figure started to turn toward me, my son, David, yelled Ma.....come here...........and I blew up and yelled leave me alone!  I kept my eyes closed and saw sharp needles of hot red blow up into the vision and I realized that this was how my anger exploded into whatever realm I was seeing.  I kept on with the breathing, calming myself and watched the red ease away.......I started to see colors....the clearest bluest blue I had ever seen then a figure , a hooded warrior's torso astride a horse and a tower ccrumbling and smoke and clouds of black and red and I wondered if this was a time when the rock was formed.  Then I saw a vortex of deepes blue with spralking blues flowing into it.......a blue hold......I knew I was meant to follow the blues but the sparkles dissolved and I saw fringes of red and knew that my anger at my son was simmering still in my body and I should not follow the blues into the vortex in this state.  So, I bid farewell to the being and to the Lord and Lady and thanked all for being patient with me.

I plan to try again tonight.  My son has strict instructions that when I leave the living room and go into my own room I am meditating and he is not to bother me.